loveconsume_die

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 23:37:43 GMT

havent been on here in a while..
everything is going good, same old same old

need a job though! hah
i will start writting again, i always write, then get side tracked and forget about this! haha but i will try not to this time!!

♥♥

xox Emily

holy cow.

Thu, 07 Oct 2004 21:27:54 GMT

wow, i just read my last entry!! haha omg such drama. well i guess i should update whoever reads this and let you know that me and travis are still together but he is in college now he goes to college in san fran. but i see him almost every weekend, if not every other weekend. i like it that way, less fights. And im not gonna say i wasnt worried about him going to college far away, because i was. i was worried he might meet someone new but he assured me he loves me, and dammit i hope he isnt playing games with me ♥ hah. and danny, me and danny are good. we are friends still and sometimes there is a little awkwardness there, but for the most part he knows i love him and i know he loves me, as friends!!!!

summer was pretty fun, i enjoyed florida but im happy i got outta there before these big storms, scary!! well i think im going to the mall right now, so i will be back later to write. thanks for listening <33

wow

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 07:58:00 GMT

havent updates in a long time. i guess i was busy and stuff. well my mom told me that im going to florida next month for a month to stay with my aunt because she needs someone now, becuz her husband just died. well i love florida, so its all good. life around here has been ok! me and travis are still together, we worked everything out with the whole danny situation. he has a girlfriend now, her name is Leslie. i met her, she is really nice and she is cute. im happy for him and leslie. and me and trav are doing GREAT! well this is short and sweet. enjoi

xoxo emily

wow.

Tue, 25 May 2004 05:06:56 GMT

nothing but drama right now... wish it would all go away... im so sick of trying to be something im not, and im sick of people thinking they can say whatever they want, but when someone else does all hell breaks loose.

ok, well! i said everything was fine with me and danny, we are friends again! nothing more nothing less. and things with me and Trav, well they were ok we didnt break up, and werent quite on a break, but but we needed to talk and stuff.. well we worked everything out, and we are/were fine! until i get the call from Danny, saying:

i love you more than anyone in my life, and we have had so much together i cant just leave us being purly friends! i dont want to be thinking about "my friend" like the way i think about you, i know you are with Travis, but i cant get over the feeling i have in my heart! and you know me Emily, you know i do what i think is best for me, even if it is hard for me, but this feels soo right, i need you to be with me, i need you by my side, i need you like no other. i love you more as everyday passes by, and i cant get over these feelings im having, you dont know how hard i tried. i felt this way since the day we first met and i have never stopped loving you, and dont think i ever will stop. you took my heart, and to tell you the truth i dont ever want it back!

i was speechless. im so confused and just ahh about everything he told me to take my time and think about whats best for me, because thats all that matters. god, i love danny, but i love trav to. i think i have an idea in my head on what to do, but its soo hard, it seems unbarable. boys... cant live with them, cant live without them. i mean either way, i hurt someone i really care about?!
some input.. anyone?

xoxo, em

new start?

Fri, 21 May 2004 18:53:37 GMT

well as you can see i deleted all my post that had to do with my ex and my current boyfriend, because me and my ex are purly friends now.. and my current boyfriend, well trav isnt really in good terms with me right now, but everything will be ok!

so im starting over on this journal thing.. no more looking back, all forward from here on out!

xoxo, Emily